Marriage thoughts?

What is your opinion about the big 'M' word? 

That's right. In this post, I'm going to post about my thoughts on marriage and the things that comes with it. Right now, it's all I can do not to call my mum right now and tell her that I want to get engaged to Ange as soon as time allows me to get married. But I am afraid of being further from my family than I am already are. 

I know what comes with marriage. Financial independence (and I don't mean that as a good thing), emotional dependence, living together, and all sorts of things. We have to make a lot of compromises and stuffs like that. The way I put it may not make me seem very mature. But I can assure you, I know very well what a marriage entails. It also comes with being separated from my family, and as much as I want marriage, I'm very very scared of that happening to me.

My posts these few days won't make sense. So I ask you to pardon me. It will be stopping half way here and there due to my lack of perseverance in writing something long winded. 

Angry bursts...

Have you ever just felt like people look down upon you when you try to join in something that they're in? Have you ever felt like you just don't belong somehow, and there is no point trying to justify that you do belong? Have you ever felt like you want to have something superior, just so they take what they're thinking of and shove it up their tight arses? Call it pride, ego or whatever you choose to put it as. But regardless, it sucks when people are just being jackasses, whether they have a mental condition or not is not a consideration. Enough excuses are being made for this person and to be honest, I've had it.

For one moment just now, I wished that I could have telekinesis, or the ability to orb things. Seriously it would do me a lot of good. For one thing, so long I keep it a secret, I can mess things up for people in a way they won't know how. Things upturned, objects thrown around. And I can imagine it will be a very good pressure reliever, one closing of the fist and the stuff in that person's room gets destroyed, messed up and thrown about, ahhh...the satisfaction.

Pity all this can only be in my head. If only magic exists. It'll rub that stupid stare of that kid's face before the magician can say 'alakazam'.